2/01/2018

Dear Stuart,

New month New me! No. But, today was a good day. Even though nothing really great happened, I felt positive, optimistic, patient, grateful. It's always nice to have some happy days for no reason, it reminds me that my happiness doesn't have to be attached to anything but my own ability to have it. 

Nonno had to get on the commode twice while we were eating lunch. The second time was in the midst of him eating ice cream. He was settled sitting in the middle of the kitchen, and he sat there, trying to poop, eating plain vanilla ice cream in a bowl. I wasn't sure how to look at it; a portrait of a sad man or an icon of resilience and blithe? Depends on the day I suppose. It could be one of those glass-half-full things.

I saw it as a little bit of both. And actually, that's a really valid option too. It doesn't always have to be happy or sad, black or white, full or empty. In fact, rarely is it one extreme or the other, right? So perhaps in that way it was one of those illusion things; where if you look at it one way it's a beautiful woman, but if you look at it another way it's an upside-down cat.

You know what I'm talking about, right?

Time for sleep.

I love you!
Emily :)